Balance is Bullshit

Balance is bullshit. Several years ago my sister was rushed into emergency brain surgery for an aneurism. As luck would have it, she received treatment from THE BEST brain surgeon in the country...perhaps even the world. But the risks were high and there was a very real possibility she would not survive the surgery. The surgery took hours. We were al so scared, but the surgeon was the most skilled in the field. Against all odds, she survived. I often thought what kind of education it takes to be THE BEST brain surgeon. How many years of school does that take?? How many years of internship? It truly boggles my mind. During his education, did he look for balance? How many nights did he spend at the Frat House drinking and dancing? How many classes did he blow off due to a hangover or a girl? Did he cheat on his exams? I am thinking, as best in his field, hundreds of tiny and humongous goals achieved he didn't find a whole lot of balance because he didn't look for it. I have a feeling he sacrificed a lot of social time, family time, relationship time to meet his requirements to be a brain surgeon. How much more to be THE BEST. I thank God everyday he was focused...obsessed....with his goal of becoming a brain surgeon. My sister is still here because of it. You all focus on SOMETHING. Your husbands. Your children. Your careers. Your community service. Your church. Your animals. So WHY, when it comes to your health and fitness do you cling to BALANCE? I KNOW...... BECAUSE IT FEELS GOOD. It feels good to take a walk and them meet friends for tacos and beer. It feels good play at healthy eating so we can splurge at that Birthday Party. It's fun to skip out of a workout and grab lunch with a friend because you are stressed and just need to chat and gob.

How do I know? Because I have been living in "balance" since Halloween! And I am calling BULLSHIT on myself! Granted I have maintained a huge weight loss for 16 years, but it is time to refocus. I spent all of last year prepping for a physique competition that I DID NOT DO because of "balance". aka FEAR WTF. #BOOM...there it is.

I know what "I" am afraid of.... What are you afraid of? It might be the same thing. Tomorrow I am going to pack balance away with my wine glasses and pizza stone for 80 days

What I am afraid of? Succeeding. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”